..darling: to you..

Darling,

I have been thinking about you very much lately. I found that there is one thing that puts me really insecure, makes me shiver and feel adrenalin coming from the deepest of my heart. It is not a common feeling, not comparable to the little butterflies that I feel when I have to do something exciting. I don't know if it is correct to think so much on you but I just do it. Today I found the reason why I become so insecure, well one of many thought. I would like to be a present to you like you are to me. Always, I try to picture you and have a fresh portrait of you in my mind, but I can't. You complete my life in so many ways that you image is different from each side I look at you, if I need to laugh you are there, if I need a hug or to cry your shoulder is ready and if I need to be corrected you kindly wisdom is there. I have been thanking God for you since a long time, and everytime I am with him, I can only long to take you there closer to him, not because only I can do it, but 'cause we need each other to walk to Him. There are really many thinks that God has asked me to give you and do to you. Not only to serve you, but to take care of you, give you security, give you my gifts so that you can be completed, love you and give myself to you. I read that list, and see that I can't do it now. I don't feel ready, and good is that I don't need to be perfectly ready but to train to feel up the list. I feel underserving of receiving a beautiful princess like you, and not only beautiful 'cause I see you like, but 'cause our creator says so. I would like to promise you a lot today, but I know I can't. I would like to have you near today but it's not allow, God still keeps you in his dwellings 'till He sees it is time for me to receive the greatest token of his grace:You. The only thing it is allow for me to promise is to grow in Him to learn to be a godly man in the image of our Savior. Leaving the habits and fighting the goog battle of faith give up my weeknesses and lifting glory to His name. So, when the glorious meeting day comes, I 'll receive you ready to be what God wants me to be for you walking beside you and growing in the knowledge of Him even more. With love to my wife.(the one that I have not meet yet...)